So I haven’t shared alot about any other biblical characters that have inspired my boldness, but in the same lineage as the daughters is actually Abraham and Sarah (remember I referenced them regarding the AH on their names?).
Right now, on this boldness journey I have actually been really challenged in what parts of me want to be Sarai who forces Abram to try and get what God promised them in their own strength (Genesis 16:2) as opposed to Sarah who has future promised to her that if she trusts in the Lord will produce laughter (Genesis 18).
Every time I go to open my mouth to say what I want or what I am believing for I feel so challenged to stay quiet because I am not sure if I am taking the easy route or it really is the path to promise.
That is one of the very real challenges with boldness. What is boldness based on a promise? Or what is boldness because you just don’t want to walk the narrow road so you ask for the easy way out?
So this question enters my mind every day of this journey. In contemplative prayer I am surrendering again in silence all these hopes and dreams. At the same time the Enneagram work I am doing as a 9 who doesn’t always access feelings well, would be encouraging me to feel and articulate those feelings. But what’s feelings, and what is truth, and what is discernment, and what is promise, and what is compromise and good but not great?
I watch too many people settle in a place or with a person that is so obviously just because they were too impatient to keep waiting.
And it is destructive to the purposes of God in their life. This unfortunately though is usually when they stop asking for wisdom and counsel on their world. And the boldness just leads to compromise. Read on about what Ishmael produced in his future and just see.
I want to be the Sarah with the faith, not the SaraI who strives.
God told me Today that He trusts me. He was showing me I won’t make decisions of compromise and convenience and comfort and that He trusts me to just keep walking one step at a time even though I don’t always know where that is heading.
And I think He wants some of you to know that too. This boldness journey was so clearly not to be a striving or even this intense directive, pursuit. It was, and is, a journey.
You are heard, seen, known, trusted and loved. Even in your wildest, most barren winter. Don't stop. Journey in stages. That’s all that is required. One step in front of the other.
Thank you so much for taking this journey with me. It has been so special and writing it out loud, although vulnerable, has been powerful.