Tuesdays in my world is full of back to back meetings. Often online these days so that I can be super present for my girls. Our morning began with some fairly explosive emotions running around the house and some not so kind name calling.
That is the worst feeling in the world to let your daughters off into this brutal world where they are named so many things daily, having been called names at home. This goes entirely against the core value I hold of home being a safe space. So then most of the day, putting on a brave face for all my meetings I battled all those same 'names' that the enemy would love to label me with ... Until i chose to arrest the lies and begin to see how this could be turned around for good.
And it was. it may be midnight. But it has turned around by the grace of God and the choice I made to not lean into the lies.
Our main text for this journey is the story of the ‘Daughters of Z’ which tells of a man named Zelophehad, who dies without having a son to continue his name. As a result, his daughters are not able to receive their father’s portion of the Promised Land. (Having had no son, the continuation of his family name depended on his heirs receiving land in his name.) Numbers 27.
In a day and age when having a son was paramount, can you imagine what Zelophehad thought each time his wife gave birth to another girl? We have four girls - actually if you ask my daughters they will emphatically remind me that we have five daughters because Anastasia Zoe is in heaven – she was born at 22 weeks and her heart had stopped beating.
I know my husband Andrew gets the whole ‘daughters-and-no-son’ dynamic. The difference is that we don’t live in a society where that is humiliating. In fact it is not only humiliating – it meant disaster for the legacy of this man, Zelophehad.
So naming them was quite a powerful statement that he was making, At our gathering of girls we spoke about their names and here is what they mean:
The first daughter was named Mahlah, which means SICKNESS - ‘to become sick or faint, weakness due to being wounded’